Vaguely Blurred

All the men I’ve loved before
have somehow merged into one
I cannot seem to remember more
of what each had said or done

I cannot seem to recollect which
of them I had wanted to stay
Or which I had simply wished
that he would go away

Their flowers have long since died
Their letters faded into oblivion
Their promises proved they’ve only lied
Hearts formed of dark obsidian

All the men I’ve loved before
their faces all vaguely blurred
I had not known what was in store
or why my heart was stirred…

But then the one or two
Who’s hearts seemed to ring true
I miss them so
Though they’ll never know..

You’re wondering if that could be you.

 

 

 

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Choices

You remember waking up to
warm bodies intertwined
every daybreak, every sunrise
a musical loop that serves to remind

You loved the sleep in her eyes and
the taste of morning on her lips
Hours of talking and reminiscing
in between smiles and coffee sips

Coffee in bed 2
She liked hers with cream no sugar
you took yours black and sweet
Those lazy Sunday mornings
in between crumpled sheets

You remember her hand in yours
how it was such a perfect fit
and how holding her in your arms
was as natural as instinct

Now
your sheets are still crumpled
but your coffee tastes bitter
your mornings are chilly
and you know that you miss her

Your bed is empty
it looms larger in your room
as you focus on the ring she left
next to a bottle of her perfume

Reminding you of your choices
and the right you had to make them
Reminding you of your promises
and the right you had to break them

One moment you’re drowning and
the next you’re dying of thirst
All you know is the moment is gone
and it could not be rehearsed

The choice was yours to make
it was the choice you chose to take —
your choice became your burden
your greatest mistake

Some live and some die
in that one moment of regret
The moment moves on
but you will never forget.

 

“We are our choices.”  ~ Jean-Paul Sartre