slither.

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You’re calling me baby while she’s in your bed
Telling me you wish it was me instead

Whispering through the phone sweet words in my ear
Knowing full well those are words for her to hear

Shame on you and your insipid deceit
Is there one honest bone between your head and your feet?

Shining a light on the lies that you conceal
are the crimes your heart and lips reveal

I don’t want your kisses or borrowed affection
that slither through your teeth without thought or reflection

How can I trust what is born of deception
built on prevarications from the moment of inception

I don’t want your excuses or justifications implied
whining about what you’re lacking and she doesn’t provide

a Man would know how  to get what is his desire
or have the courage to walk away, and not be a liar

but you choose to stay and deliberately mislead
A real Man owns up to and corrects his misdeed

You were supposed to be her protector, honorably
How is someone like you going to protect and honor me?

Just because you identify as ‘male’ doesnt mean you’ve got the cojones
And I dont see much better from most of your cronies

You walk around demanding respect based on prestige you’ve concocted
Floating on ego, playing a part you’ve adopted

Preaching to all who will listen of all you have learned
Well I’m here to teach you that respect.. is not given but earned

You want to sit there and talk to me about what you deserve..
wow.. you’ve got some nerve.

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every day I forgive him

he asked me if I forgave him..
to which I smiled and replied,

yes.
 every day i forgive you

what i did not tell him was
that each morning

and every night
i have to remind myself
to forgive him

i did not tell him
that I didn’t know
our last kiss would be the last

that he hadn’t given me a chance to cherish it
that I didn’t even remember
when it was
or how his lips felt against mine

that i wish I could remember that last kiss
as clearly as I remember the first
beneath that moonlit sky

but I hadn’t known it was the end of us
and it all seems so unfinished

i did not tell him
of how much i miss the gaze
that used to warm my skin like sunshine
but is now hidden behind clouds

or of how I ache for the arms that used to hold me
envelop me
for now,
now my bones feel so cold

I did not tell him
that
it will always hurt to think of him
it will always hurt
to see him smile
at her..
any her..
every her..

and to know that he had seen my heart breaking
right in front of his eyes
that he had known of my prayers to keep him..

and simply watched

and waited

every day
i forgive him

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